A new beginning + you don’t have to try

Yesterday I wrote about how I was studying for all the wrong reasons and how I was agonising over giving it up, feeling like a failure, yet again.

There were tears, lots of them.  I knew I could not go on living in the skin that didn’t belong to me.  I had to give it up.  It wasn’t serving me.  I wasn’t serving me.  I wasn’t listening to me.  I had become lost in the mire of expectation and obligation.  As I pressed the ‘withdraw from course’ button, I knew that I had taken on a mantle that was flowing against my own river of life.

That needed to change.  It so needed to change.  A new beginning for me: a new step in a direction that feels foreign to me.  If I listen closely I can hear the whispers of my soul setting me in the direction I need to go.  Noise drowns it out often, but sometimes she manages to break through.  I resist.  I have always resisted.  But no more.  I will break through and shine as the person I am meant to be. But then I doubted myself, as I so often do.

Then, I saw this on Facebook:

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As those of you who follow my blog will know, I’m not really a spiritual person but I’m taking the signs wherever I can get them.

I don’t have to try.  I just have to be me.

And the same goes for you, you beautiful human.  You just have to be.

Until next time,