“I feel like such a failure”. I’m sitting opposite my friend. We are having coffee. She wanted to see me before I go away. I haven’t told a lot of people about me going away, even though it is here on my blog. Telling the wider world doesn’t feel as personal somehow, though a few…
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The family gathering
I pick up the phone and make the call. “Hey Pumpkin, it’s mom. Dad and I have something we would like to tell you. Can you come over at 8:30, just on your own.” Miss J and R have a friend over to stay but this isn’t something I want to tell them. For now,…
The day I chose sobriety
I sat crying in the passenger seat of my car. I was shaking uncontrollably. Outside, the sun beat down, stifling each breath I took. How did I get to this point? Mr C gently took my hand. “If you aren’t ready, we don’t have to do this today.” I shook my head. No, if I…
WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT ALCOHOLISM
I was talking to a friend the other day about my childhood. In my early teenage years, my dad’s drinking had become untenable for us as a family. My dad was probably in the lowest place he could possibly be emotionally, ravaged by the grip of alcohol and a life in which he felt trapped….
Friday Five {Non-alcoholic drinks}
Finding a refreshing drink as an alcoholic can be a little frustrating. As summer approaches, and the Christmas season sets in, going out becomes the order of the day. But when you venture out, the non-alcoholic drink choices are incredibly limited. It tends to be orange or apple juice, coke, lemonade or lemon, lime…
The seductress and the middle aged woman who is learning to live
How, when you have depression, do you find the light in the day? I have no idea to that question. I am only me. The glass is half-empty me. The “some days it’s hard to live” me. I find life really really hard. So hard in fact I became a raging alcoholic. Raging might be…
HALT – you need to take care of yourself
When I became sober, one of the things I learned at AA was an acronym called HALT. It stands for Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired. These are the things that can be the death knoll for the recovering alcoholic. Those things that put our sobriety at risk. I have learned that the same applies to…
Powerless over Alcohol
Day 2: I am powerless over alcohol. No-one likes to admit this and I am no exception. I have known, of course, for years that this is the case, but like any grieving process, I was in denial. People who are alcoholics do grieve. They grieve the loss of being that good time person, the…