Baby C has made it through another night, although I wake up with a start at 6:00am when Dee’s alarm goes off to wake him for work. I am unable to return to sleep. It is cold. Winter is on its way. I get out of bed, turn on the heating (ignoring all the housework…
Knitting and leaving the ward – Monday 9 April – 27 Weeks and 2 days
As I open my eyes to the start of a new day, I wonder how much longer it will be before Baby C makes his arrival. Having the threat of a preemie baby, and all of the implications that brings, consumes everything. I am unable to think of housework (which at the best of times…
Easter, loss and an overwhelming sense of fear – Sunday 8 April – 27 weeks and 1 day
Another day and Jay has still not gone into labour. It is Easter Sunday. She sends me a text to say that she is well and that, in fact, her contractions have largely subsided. She really wants to come home and wonders if the doctors will allow it. I don’t think that is a good…
Boredom and Colds – Saturday 7 April – 27 Weeks
27 weeks today!! We have made it to 27 weeks. Jay is such a clever little girl! Sorry, such a clever young woman! I wake up feeling heaps better and am eager to get to the hospital. I get up, get showered, make sure JC has his breakfast and head off to the hospital. It…
Even grandma needs a sick day – Friday 6 April – 26 weeks and 6 days
I wake up at 3am with searing pain in my chest. I immediately know what it is and pray that I don’t have to be carted off to hospital. I drag myself out of bed and take a Somac, two panadeine fortes and a gulp of Mylanta. I return to bed and lie flat on…
False alarm number 3 – Thursday 5 April – 26 weeks and 5 days
I am lying in bed when Jay gives me a call. “How are you Mum? What are you doing?” “Just in bed angel. I’m getting up now and will be over soon.” I get out of bed and get into the shower. My phone rings again. I am alert, listening out for any sign that…
An uneventful day YAY! – Wednesday 4 April – 26 weeks and 4 days
I wake up at a reasonable time today and am glad that Jay has made it through another night without giving birth. I am tired though. The stress of not knowing if I am going to get a phone call in the night is starting to take its toll. I am grumpy and I have…
Tuesday 3 April – 26 weeks and 3 days
I wake up early and make my way to the hospital. Dee’s dad agrees to give JC his lunch and Dee agrees to get home as early as he can so JC is not on his own for too long. I am feeling very stressed at having to leave JC for extended periods of time,…
Another false alarm – Monday 2 April – 26 weeks and 2 days
At 5am, I make my way back to Jay’s room. Em is still fast asleep on the floor. I pull up a chair next to Jay’s bed, rest my head back and fall into a light sleep. I am conscious of people coming and going, but am also tired so am able to doze. Eventually,…
An April fool’s joke, not! – Sunday 1 April – 26 weeks and 1 day
Today is Sunday and I say a silent thank you to the universe for allowing Jay to make it through another night. I have not slept at all well and am totally exhausted. I know that too much chocolate just before bed is to blame for this. I can’t help it, I am addicted to…